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I suddenly have the urge to encourage all the people I know to listen to Enya's music such as Anywhere is and Fire and Ice. They are just so nice! I remembered when I share her songs with my classmates in secondary school, they said that those songs feels very eerie to them. But to me, it is like heavenly voices! They just makes me feel that the world is beautiful, makes me feel sad, makes me feel peaceful, makes me feels like running endlessly.

So, I have to face the reality. I am no longer a kid anymore. I can sense it in this Chinese New Year. Through the way my uncles and aunties talks to me, and the reactions the kids gives as if I am a 长辈. I am not classified as them anymore!

And I have to admit that there isn't kids anymore! How incredibly fast they grow! I remembered them as something so small that you can hold them in your arms and now.... She is like a little talented genius playing Jay's latest album song 不能说的秘密! His voice breaks already! She is already having some boobs! Impressive! And damn! I can't remember their names!

I mean this can't be my fault! There is really too many names to remember. Why do my cousins (They are all at least 20 years old older than me) have so many kids?

So maybe that is why my parents come up with numbers to represent us all.

My eldest sister - Shi Si (44)
My 2nd sister - Shi Yi (41)
My 3rd sister - Si Qing (47)
Me - Si Ling (40)

11.00pm Wednesday 28January2009

One by One - Enya
Here am I
Yet another goodbye
He says Adiós, says Adiós,
And do you know why
She won't break down and cry?
- she says Adiós, says Adiós, Goodbye

One by one my leaves fall
One by one my tales are told
It's no lie
She is yearning to fly
She says Adiós, says Adiós
And now you know why
He's a reason to SIGH
- she says Adiós, says Adiós, Goodbye

One by one my leaves fall
One by one my tales are told

My, oh my
She was aiming too high
He says Adiós,
And now you know why
There's no moon in her sky
- he says Adiós, says Adiós, Goodbye

No Goodbyes
For love brightens their eyes
Don't say Adiós, say Adiós,
And do you know why
There's a love that won't die?
- don't say Adiós, say Adiós, Goodbye
- don't say Adiós, say Adiós, Goodbye
- don't say Adiós, say Adiós, Goodbye
- don't say Adiós, say Adiós, Goodbye

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Anyway, I tell you guys that I will never buy anymore dresses in singapore! A LOVELY DRESS COST ME RM32.90 ONLY!! And the exchange rate was S$100 to RM235! I can buy almost 8 pretty dresses with just S$100!

It is so wierd some people can be at times. Some weeks before Chinese New Year, Mama says that I have bought plenty of clothes already, that I may not need to get any more new year clothes. Yet on ny eve, she asked me have I buy any ny clothes and I say I didn't except some cute sleeping gown . The next moment she asked papa fetched me to buy some ny clothes. -.-

So, the day before new year eve, I was supposed to meet up with Janel for shopping for NY clothes AGAIN, and we failed AGAIN because she overslept. Cannot blame her also, she is tired from work plus I have already predicted the outcome would sort of turn out like this. So, my sister Fatty Qing and I went Northpoint for some shopping yet we didn't find anything we like for NY clothes. But I bought some night wear which cost me over $60. Please don't say I am stupid or silly, because they are really cute! If I have a boyfriend, I will like to alternate between cute and sexy at times~~ LOL!!!

Anyway, I think that I am never too old for these cute cute de night gown besides, there isn't any signs which states that these clothings are only suitable for kids below 12~~~~

Just came home from watching Love Matters with my sister and ShuHua. YongQuan was supposed to join us the movie but it was NC16. Was wondering whether or not to change to watch another show but since none of ShuHua or my sis have any suggestion and I really wants to watch this show since long ago.. I am so bad!!! I should have been the first one to say that: hey guys! lets watch another show! I should reflect.

It seems so yesterday when ShuHua and I was in the back of the van going to the hospital to visit because YongQuan was born. Time passes! Every year, the younger children grows bigger!

By the way, it is so amazing I want to say again about the nature of weight can be! I ate so much these few days and I didn't gain weight! Or is my weighing scale not functioning properly?

To be continued....

28January2009 Wednesday 1.30am

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新年快乐! 恭喜发财! 事事顺利!

I'm back to Singapore! Today is 初二.

Well, I think the Malaysia custom is rather stupid if you have been to Malaysia recently through the woodlands checkpoint you will know why. It is twists and turns taking a huge detour before you can reach the Malaysia's checkpoint! Conclusion is Malaysia have too much land for infrastructure and accessities, but I guess that the route is only for temporary.

Anyway, lets start with the eve of lunar new year. I was off duty from work at 2am. And was happily thinking about my plans once I reached home and we will be heading to Malaysia. Then I heard from Louis that he hasn't got any train or bus ticket back home yet. I was thinking that poor child, during this joyous festive period, it will be a pity that he took so many days of leave and yet couldn't go back home for reunion dinner with his family. So, while I was on the transport home, I suddenly thought of my relatives who will always drives to KL after having reunion dinner with us every year to visit their relatives at KL. They could actually gives Louis a ride as this is 举手之劳!

So, when I reached home, I asked my father who is still sleeping if he could asked my uncle to let Louis take 顺风车. My papa is sleeping, so I asked him in his sleep.

Me: Papa, my friend didn't manage to get a ticket home for reunion dinner, uncle can give him a ride?
Papa: Orh, I will ask them.
Me: Why not ask now?
Papa: It is in the middle of the night, lets not disturb people in their sleep. Tell your friend uncle is not going back.

My papa is asking me to lie! Besides, I haven't even offer Louis the solution yet. Because I cannot 给人家一点希望, 又让他失望. <--Another thing I have learnt recently.

So, maybe I shouldn't talk to anyone when they are sleeping, they weren't in the mood to reply you or talk nicely.

Me: 没关系, 我没有告诉我朋友叔叔有回, 只是这是可以做到的事, 而且叔叔顺路, 可以帮到的.

Then I walk away. I know that my father is now lying there wide awake. My papa loves helping people, I know he is now feeling guilty that he didn't want to help just now. But I can also understand my papa's difficulty. It might be troublesome for my uncle plus he is a stranger to my papa and uncle. Cannot trust strangers easily. But people, wouldn't it be a tiring world if the world is full of suspicion? And everyone, 助人为乐, didn't we learn this in primary school?

I will blog again soon as I am now going to play mahjong with my sisters and my sis-in-law~~

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Mama and Papa wasn't at home for quite a few days. I was machiam the Maria of my siblings. I vacumn the whole house, I clean up the toilet, I washes all the clothes and hang them up to dry, I clear the rubbish bins, I packed up the living room and the balcony area which is full of stinking shoes(I guess smelly foot runs in my whole family). Then I have to write a NOTICE and stick it on the fridge requesting my sisters to clean up their room.

But I love doing house chores. Maybe I can be a good housewife next time. The things I need to learn if I want to be a housewife: Cook. Communicate well and harmoniously with my in-laws. Look after the kids and how to let my husband feels fortunate and impress to have me as his wife.

But cooking wasn't a difficult task to me. As I was once a food and nutritionist student in school who can come up with 4 dish 1 soup within 2.5 hours. Just need some training to brush up the skills.

Ok, Eric and Aaron the regular customers came yesterday. I went into their 包箱 and this is the topic:

Aaron: Aiyah, 只相差五岁而已..
Eric: 哪里只五岁?我80年的.. 所以你几时有空跟我去吃饭?
Aaron: No lah no lah.. age gap five years only.. (is 8 years ok?)
Me: 没有时间啦, 起来的时间都是刚刚好要开工了..
Eric: Got boyfriend now is it?
Me: 没有啦, 现在只想要单纯的过多四或五年..
Eric: 单纯的我也可以, 动物园, 鸭子团..
Me: No lah, just maybe four or five years later then get a boyfriend get married loh
Aaron: Wah! Four or Five Years? Later he old already loh!

I was wondering these few days, if I couldn't get married to the 真命天子 at 25 years old, I can date him when I'm 26 if he is still available. He is an insurance agent, with a master degree. 是OK的! I don't know is it whether I too pantang because somehow I got the feeling that if I don't get married before when I am 25, I will be single forever. 2 years ago, I went China, a fortune teller says that I will get married before 25 with someone who will loves me very much. But do I love him? I didn't know, the fortune teller didn't say.. But now I knew, I need to love him too to be together with a men my life time. Will be a mistake if there is no love in him.. The days will be hard to pass. Anyway what is love? "爱"是没有一个完全的解释, 因为每个人对它的衡量不一样..

但是如人所说我见一个, 爱一个的个性. 我相信只要男人对我好, 感情是能培养出来的..

Damn! From all my post, I realised that I didn't believe in miracle. I had never believe that the men I love will love me in return!

Anyway whats wrong with being single forever? I'm ok de. Cannot treat people as a spare tyre. So I will have to erase off the thought of spare tyre~~ So, I will yam seng to my single life if I haven't get married at my last day 25. That will be 3rd of April 2014.

2.55pm Friday 23.01.09

Anyway, I haven't give up on jian fei-ing, just that I will slowly ba~~

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DAMN! I can wave goodbye to my shopping already!

3.15am Thursday 22012009

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It is now 4.30am, no mood to sleep. Haiz...

Janel, please stop me when I eat tidbits, because I am so regretful that I ate them! Like that how to lose weight? Erm, maybe find wrong people to help me already, because Janel will be the one seeing me eat tidbits and will come and join me eat the tidbits together.

So, I still haven't come up with the forfeit if I didn't manage to lose weight before the deadline. Maybe the punishment will be no more shopping until the end of March. Erm... Maybe it is too long. How about until end of February? DAMN! Just put it till end of March!

So it will means, if I did not manage to lose weight before the deadline, I could not spend any money unless on food and transportation! Can save money some more!

5.15am 19January2009 Monday

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TMD! I'M GETTING FATTER!

Weight a few days ago: 52kg

目前体重: 55.2kg (DAMN!!!!!!!!!)
On 18.01.2009

目标体重: 52kg
By 24.01.2009

计划: Do rigorous exercise.

成功奖励: 24th to allow $250 for clothes and etc.

失败惩罚: I will come up with it by tonight to think what is more appropriate!

What will this show: How much perserverance and determination do I have.

Damn!! How do I gain so much in a few days?

4.30pm Sunday 19.01.2009

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Recently, I have discovered that I had actually learnt another skill from my superior. Analyzing (分析). So, I tried analyzing myself after work today. I look at myself for evrything that I did.

For every thing that I do, there is always a reason.

I can be crazy, I can laugh out loudly wanting to attract some attention like a 5 year old. I may laugh, I may smile to let people think that I am alright, I am fine, I am happy when I'm actually not very ok. I need to be someone simpler. I need to be someone whom I can be proud of.

Anyway, before work today, I accompanied my parents to 282 bishan street 22, the wet market. My mother wants to buy some Abalone for CNY dinner which would be hosting at my house in Malaysia every year. The tradition.

I mean my mother spent more than $300 for 6 cans of abalone. Expensive! People like me think it is not really worth spending so much money on food which is not really tasty and is chewy like rubber. But I can understand one thing is that every CNY, there would always be abalone, standard one. I decided to sacrifice my Night of Fancy until next few months because I decided to give my mother more money to use. My mother always spent a lot during every CNY, like giving ang baos, buying eggs, flour and butter to make those CNY biscuits(mama just complained to me this morning that butter, eggs and flour charges keeps increasing), buying food for steam boats for my entire family and relatives. Night of Fancy compared to my mother's abalone is 微不足道as what my mother spent is self-less.

My parents used to own a stall selling grocery since I was 6 and they retired when I was 15. It is wierd that my parents sell veggies yet I don't eat veggies. I would remember all the fun always. Even until now everything is still so fresh in my mind.

Such as how my mother and sisters and the helper always count the charges, how the aunties bargain for extra spices such as chilli padi, corrianda leaves for free. All the noises keeps on buzzing into my mind now. Business is good especially on Saturdays and Sundays mornings. My sisters and I would usually wake up as eary as three o'clock and took a taxi down to the market to help out. We will be very tired but it is fun. We would then challenge who is the fastest in packing up the veggies. My favourite veggies to pack is xiao bai cai and cai xin. And I dislike KangKong because of the roots which make it difficult to tie them up and I hate long beans too because of the worms it always has. Xiao bai cai at most have some small snails. Which compared to worms is plenty much more better.

Usually, I noticed the best selling veggies is cauliflower, broccoli, lotus roots and cabbages(Got Malaysia and Australia). And I hate to be the one explaining the charges. To say in a nicer way is explaining the charges, but the fact is that we were just counting infront of them. Like example, we will say that $1, $1.40 - $2.40. $2.40, $4 - $6.40. Just mental calculation, no calculator plus not that undated to have those cashier drawer when press a button, "ching" cashier drawer come out or like NTUC scan barcode de hor . I didn't like to be the cashier because of the different veggies different charges. Like example carrots is 1kg $2, then you have to weigh them on the not electronic weighing scale, and if the carrots is like 700g, than you have to calculate. Plus I can't really be bothered to go around remember like so many different types of veggies and the different charges for them. Like me see, I can still remember that at my time chilli padi is 1kg $7, cabbage is cheap, 1kg $2 and tomatoes 1kg at $4.

For every year, the best part is CNY period. It is fun! Because we will be crazy like hell, because everyone will know that stalls will not be open during CNY and if they did not buy enough veggies in advance, it means no veggies for them to eat the next few days. Business is in operation 24 hours every few days before CNY, and I have the record of staying there for more than 24 hours and I will be damn smelly and sleepy! Surely, no one would come to a market and buy veggies in the middle of the midnight, just that we didn't have the time to close stall and after closing for a few hours in the night then open the stall again a while later would seem stupid. And we would use the time to pack veggies again. My papa would then employ some banglahs just to pack up the veggies. My papa is always heading to and fro Pasir Panjang to load more veggies into the lorry and back for us. I really miss those days.

Sorry that this post will be incomplete as this post is merely to past time. And now, this post is a success as it really helps me past my time. And now, I am sleepy. Yay~~ Nite nite~~

5.45am Sunday 18January2009

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YAY~~ Just finished spring cleaning yesterday. Supposed to meet up with Janel to watched red cliff but Janel overslept and I was very tired, so we decided to meet up next time.

皇帝都Ok了, 他这个丞相却说不Ok! 把老娘给气死了! 我们八字相克吗? I mean sometimes I really hate Super Louis (Ok, I don't mean it). He is damn stubborn and I think he is too clever and his cleverness is quite scary to a certain extend.

Anyway, I have been in KBox for more than 2 years, and I can say that I have achieve nothing but learn quite a lot of things. (Achieve nothing and learn quite a lot? Did I just contradict myself?)

With Miss Joey, I learnt about doing business, handling of regular customers, upselling of company products, brain washing of staff and make them do cow do horse for you. Perhaps I was the only one kena brain wash?

With Super Lewis, I learnt about my personality. During the period when I worked under her, I have made a lot of mistakes which makes many of my colleague unhappy with me. Arrogance and ignorant is strongly discourage.

With Mr Michael, hmm.... NOTHING.

With Mr Kent, I can't really remember. DAMN, what am my whole mind dealing with that I couldn't really remember working with him much? But only remember that it is enjoyable working under him.

With Mr Patrick, I learnt a great deal but 一言难尽. I realise it only recently that he is a great mentor and teaches a lot, one of them is 责任感.

With Mr Sam, I can say that he is really worth respecting. He makes me believe that 只要有付出, 就会有收获.

With Super Louis, I have learnt about patience, calm, being forgiving, suppressing of anger, politeness, the art of smiling, thinking in the point of a customer and most of all 讲道理. And I still didn't really do well in all those mention and I still have a great deal to learn. I believe that no one would ever say anything bad about his character and his way of doing things work related. I am really idolising him with five parts of body on the ground. Only until now, I felt that what I learnt is 让我不虚做了此工. I believe that everyone who has work with him would agree that 受益良多.

Back to lesson today, it is now 10.00am, just finished breakfast and perhaps would go blogging the whole day. I would never go without breakfast anymore since reading an article that says something similar to people will get more stupid because brain will go smaller if going without breakfast. Todays Analytical Instrumentation module is now related to alcohol consumption. And what I'm going to research on is how and why does alcohol influence people.

Ok, people thinks that I am talkative when I am drunk. It is scientifically proven that some people is talkative or would become aggressive when they are drunk. So, I'm not the only one being talkative. Alcohol slows the function of the central nervous system, which means it blocks messages trying to get to the brain... Ok, shall not type my school work here.

Ok, yesterday was my off day from work. Spent the whole day like a domestic worker. I wash the clothes. Nah, its the washing machine which did the job, all I did was pour all the clothes into the washing machine, pour some 洗衣粉 and softener and press a few buttons then hang them up to dry. Then start my spring cleaning for my room. I don't really "clean". I just pack them up nicely. All of my stuff is collecting dust. How am I going to clean up those stuff? My manga is like thousands and my cds and vcds is like plenty!

Damn, my classmates is now talking about going KBox over the school holidays. They were talking about the charges and I was about to open my mouth and decided not to. They didn't know that I work in KBox, plus I didn't really know them. I am anti-social in school. See? I'm blogging instead of socialising.

My favorite collection is One Piece, Naruto, Hunter x Hunter, Slam Dunk and Detective Conan~~

The pig is given by Anna on my 12 or 13 birthday I couldn't remember. Can you find the Mashi Maro? Given by my secondary school classmates on my birthday in secondary school. And The Pooh from Dennis on my birthday last year.

I realise that I actually love reading chinese story books. Especially on those famous people from the Chinese history and also on those politics.

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Happy KBP 2009!!!

Welcoming Chinese New Year 2009~~~

Cheers!!

Just what are we doing lor?

What we got from buying 2 cartons of beer~

Fatty Ling and Fatty An~~

Yeah! Help me buy concert package? It is good!

LingLing and the beloved NiuNiu~~

See, this niuniu is so cute! Does it looks like someone else too?

I'm going to kidnap it! MUAHAHA!

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Last week was a awfully tiring week for me. Was a week pack full of happenings.

Happening 1:
Went Cineleisure with Janel and we watched Ong Bak 2. If compare it with Ip Man, Ip Man is far more better than Ong Bak 2. Be it those fights or the story.

After like 20 minutes when the movie ends, Janel only then notice that her wallet went missing. We thought it will be gone already as it is very hard to recover lost item in town area. But Janel is damn lucky, we went back to the cinema and her wallet is found and kept at their counter. Can see that Janel is very grateful and relieved so I asked her to write a compliment letter to thanks the crew. Haha.. >.<

People, just learn how to write compliment letter instead of complain letter ok? Why dosen't people write compliment letter more than complain letter? Damn it.. Ugly planet..

Happening 2:
Janel with her friend came over my place that night for a mahjong session with my elder sister. Janel's friend is very fun lor, the way she talks and she likes to sing those chinese new year song. So in the festive season mood~ >.<>.<

Happening 3:
Fatty and his ex-girlfriend business about the break up haven't rest in peace yet. I mean don't drag innocent people and blame the fault on her when love between the both have change. I almost laugh out loud. She ruin the relationship herself by suspecting god suspecting ghost.

Happening 4:
Quarrel with Super Louis again. Have to raise a white flag everytime when we have a fight at work. Because after every explanations he have made, I am the always the wrong one. And the conclusion is: Whatever he say just do, because no use opposing him as 我怎么都是讲不嬴他的. Urgh! I really hate doing new member feedback!!

Happening 5:
Ok, member feedback isn't that bad after all. That one call really give me a better day and want me to forever do better.

Customer: 你们的服务退步了很多lor, 以前的服务员比较友善. 但是我要讲那个counter girl很好lor.
Me: 那天您来消费是有两位女生在柜台, 请问她们的服务都很好吗? (Obviously, I'm trying to know who is the one she want to compliment as there is two receptionist that night)
Customer: Hmm.. 那个眼睛比较大的那个很好, 我来过很多次, 每次服务态度都没有变, 很好lor.

Muahaha. I hope that I wasn't the one doing the member feedback lor, because I wouldn't be so thick skin to write on the member feedback paper that people compliment me. Then other people who saw that sheet of paper would goes EwWw, 不要脸.. I didn't write down much feedback given from her because her complain about the servers inside is more to the extreme.

Also it is fun when the customer thought that I was some sort of manager or whatever and complain to me loads of stuff. But I wouldn't write that down. Complains about F & B, sound system, cleanliness of washroom is accepted as it is just 小事, as when departments is mention such as serverS, cashierS or receptionist, I would try to cover it up. Muahaha!! So, I would use this as a 动力to do member feedback.

Happening 6:
Actually the party that night/morning(whatever time you want to call it) is so-so after all. I hate beer. Perhaps beer only taste better when I had some hard liquor first. The best part might only be the steam boat and those photo takings I guess. Shall upload those photos when I get hold of it.

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Early morning recieve some files that got me like what Yvonne says - Emo. It is a picture of him with another women. Sian 1/2. The picture is just so loving. I almost thought that they were a pair. If not it was so obvious that there were loves splurging out of her eyes so scarily.

When I take picture with him, it was machiam I am taking picture with my idol. Zzz... Why do I seem like having the excited look as if taking a picture with my idol?

Maybe must practice infront of mirror, master a little bit technique so when next time if got chance to take picture with him, I must wipe away the grinning type of look.

Really was wondering if really he is single or attached. Maybe being very secretive has given him some charisma that boost up his attractiveness. I mean a few days ago he says something like being single is fabulous, and he is now good with it or something similar to this.

So, even if he is single or attached is also none of my business anyway. So, even if he is single, I will not go chasing after a men. I WILL NEVER CHASE AFTER A MEN. Plus I have never chase after a men before. I have many reasons for this.

Most importantly is because I do not have the courage. Also I scared kena rejected. Plus what if worst still 朋友都做不了will be 尴尬 or kena avoided.. Haha.. Maybe if I had a good figure or a pretty face and have great confident about myself will be another story. Nah, 女孩子还是要有点矜持.. >.<

Maybe I would tell the men that I love him when I'm at my death bed if not when I'm drunk. Being drunk is something scarier than watching a horror movie.

So, speaking of drunk, it reminds me of that stupid Leo! He said that that night he recorded a almost 25 minutes of video with almost half of the time videoing me drunk! And he said that I said things like I don't remember even saying! Luckily, only a few souls in this planet saw it. Kill me if it did spread out.

Anyway, have sushi with HuiShan, SiewHui and Yvonne yesterday. I felt so fun with these girls around. There will just be giggling and laughter with them around. Then Earth will be a happy planet.

But don't know which kuku complain that we have to start briefing earlier. With such kuku around the world cannot be a beautiful place. But since like that I must also reflect. I have to stop scolding people kuku also.

When I wake up from a 2 hour sleep after work to go to school, I sat down infront of the TV eating bread. Watching news together with my mama. War going on over land territories. Many people died. We are still living so comfortably, with our arms and limbs still attached so well to our body. So, we must be grateful of everything we got. So, we have to stop being kuku people.

Anyway, yesterday I heard news of a friend who is of our group of friends when we are younger. Those days when for a few years all of us stick together like super glue going everywhere together.. She is already married and have a baby! Almost 1 years old! How slow was I in getting this news! And I was like giving my friends this shocking look.

Then Anna said something like: Don't bluff lah, give this type of face, next few days she go and make baby already.
Samantha: Then maybe somedays next year, the topic will be SiLing is married and have a baby!
Jasmin is acting a movie already, holding a small baby in one hand then another hand pushing a baby trolley still caring of the other child inside. Machiam auntie auntie pattern.

Life like this would be great. Seriously.

10.15am Thursday 8th January 2009

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I miss you~
I miss you~
More and more each day!

4.00am Thursday 8 January 2009

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I suddenly finally get to see a light flickering in front of me after so long, as if guiding a way infront of me and asked me to follow the light. I hope that there is light shining a path infront of me so I can just walk till the end.

Was almost like a kid who is lost in a shopping mall crying loudly for mama.

Thanks to xm in case she didn't know that her message was so damn important to me which almost brings me to tears. It feels as if my school life might be better next year!

4.00pm 7January2009 Wednesday

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Didn't know what happened to me last night. Sort of went berserk last night. Many things have been worrying and stressing me. No shoulders for me to lean on, no one to hug. Aries women is strong and dosen't want to show their weaknesses away.

1. Chinese New Year coming, going to see my relatives again. Have to lose 5kg in another 19 days. If not the remarks will be either, "你胖了很多", or else, "你瘦掉了, 教教我~~". I would rather the second option. So, by just thinking that I have to watch what I eat from now on, I went so moody. Because the remarks last year is that I grew thinner, so I couldn't grow fatter this year!

2. What will my studies be like? I hate RP. I'm like so anti social in school because I am too tired to participate in class and too tired to socialise around. Can I study private? Then I will waste money and time again. But my view is: 钱生不带来, 死不带走. 但是我能有多少时间能浪费? 但是还是得感激这一刻我还活着. 何时我会死, 预料不到.. And I am grateful that I have my mother who is always so supportive of me and love me so much.

3. It seems like I am getting so stress up with my work. It seems like nobody appreciates me of the effort I put in work. Yes, it is true that everyone thinks that he/she is the one who is doing more work or have done good enough. I don't think that I should be treated like this. I didn't get what I am worth of. Then now it is my fault again. 太过计较, 野心太重.. 对, 都是我的错...

Really, we couldn't blame anyone when we have many stresses or when we are unhappy. This is my own problem already. If I wasn't a person who would think too much, If 我什么都是OK 的, I would be much more happier.

所以为了朝快乐前进, 要学习的: 什么都OK, 随便, 无所谓, 不要紧, 没关系, 看的开, 放宽心胸... 我行的!!!!

10.30am Tuesday 06 January 2009

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