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Didn't know what happened to me last night. Sort of went berserk last night. Many things have been worrying and stressing me. No shoulders for me to lean on, no one to hug. Aries women is strong and dosen't want to show their weaknesses away.1. Chinese New Year coming, going to see my relatives again. Have to lose 5kg in another 19 days. If not the remarks will be either, "你胖了很多", or else, "你瘦掉了, 教教我~~". I would rather the second option. So, by just thinking that I have to watch what I eat from now on, I went so moody. Because the remarks last year is that I grew thinner, so I couldn't grow fatter this year!2. What will my studies be like? I hate RP. I'm like so anti social in school because I am too tired to participate in class and too tired to socialise around. Can I study private? Then I will waste money and time again. But my view is: 钱生不带来, 死不带走. 但是我能有多少时间能浪费? 但是还是得感激这一刻我还活着. 何时我会死, 预料不到.. And I am grateful that I have my mother who is always so supportive of me and love me so much. 3. It seems like I am getting so stress up with my work. It seems like nobody appreciates me of the effort I put in work. Yes, it is true that everyone thinks that he/she is the one who is doing more work or have done good enough. I don't think that I should be treated like this. I didn't get what I am worth of. Then now it is my fault again. 太过计较, 野心太重.. 对, 都是我的错... Really, we couldn't blame anyone when we have many stresses or when we are unhappy. This is my own problem already. If I wasn't a person who would think too much, If 我什么都是OK 的, I would be much more happier. 所以为了朝快乐前进, 要学习的: 什么都OK, 随便, 无所谓, 不要紧, 没关系, 看的开, 放宽心胸... 我行的!!!!10.30am Tuesday 06 January 2009