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Tuesday, June 30, 2009 - 2:19 PM Y
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That day this customer saw my pretty bracelet as me where did I bought it and ask me how much. I tell the customer I bought my bracelet for $12.90 and she says it is very pretty and that this bracelets looks far more expensive like $50. The boyfriend say gives me $15 and ask me to sell them and that I still earn a litltle. I say no as it was something meaningful when I bought it. It isn't. How about my MRT fare? What about pay some more to me because I have at least some taste that your girlfriend agrees with me that the bracelet is nice? I think they didn't show me any respect. I thought WTH.
So, another customer booked a birthday package. They treat my friendly and awesome service as a piece of shit. The customers came and forget to bring along an identification for verification purpose. So I told them that it was one of the terms and conditions to present identification upon check in for verification purpose and they said something I ALWAYS HEAR AND HATE TO HEAR: BE FLEXIBLE. Damn, I felt like yelling back and screaming in my highest pitch at them that if a police stop them in raid or a road block demanding an IC would they say be flexible or not? Plus didn't know if that China Chinese person is illegal immigrant or not, please lah, go anywhere bring your identification along. How much does it weigh? 10KG? Plus use your leg and think, if we really want to be flexible then why comes up with terms and conditions in the first place?
So, Louis explain the same thing as I did to the customers. Inside me, I was like: SEE? I TOLD YOU. HAHA~~ Maybe this is what like people say, dog eyes see people low. Even if it is the Supervisor and the Receptionist say something the same, they would rather want to listen to the Supervisor. HELLO? we are saying the same things!
3.20pm Tuesday 30June2009
So, another customer booked a birthday package. They treat my friendly and awesome service as a piece of shit. The customers came and forget to bring along an identification for verification purpose. So I told them that it was one of the terms and conditions to present identification upon check in for verification purpose and they said something I ALWAYS HEAR AND HATE TO HEAR: BE FLEXIBLE. Damn, I felt like yelling back and screaming in my highest pitch at them that if a police stop them in raid or a road block demanding an IC would they say be flexible or not? Plus didn't know if that China Chinese person is illegal immigrant or not, please lah, go anywhere bring your identification along. How much does it weigh? 10KG? Plus use your leg and think, if we really want to be flexible then why comes up with terms and conditions in the first place?
So, Louis explain the same thing as I did to the customers. Inside me, I was like: SEE? I TOLD YOU. HAHA~~ Maybe this is what like people say, dog eyes see people low. Even if it is the Supervisor and the Receptionist say something the same, they would rather want to listen to the Supervisor. HELLO? we are saying the same things!
3.20pm Tuesday 30June2009
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Monday, June 29, 2009 - 10:53 AM Y
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Attendance in class today: 10/25
Only the ten of us came to the class. WTH. How come I didn't recieve any email or sms to tell me that I am quarantined? I mean it is so unfair. So the straits times says that this H1N1 is not deadly, so we can still continue with daily activities. I'm so tired now. Yawnz~~
My face lit up when one of the staff working in AMK who is also studying at RP tells me that she recieve an email telling her not to come to school today, once I reach home, I rush and check my email. Disappointed when I check through all the mails and didn't found that email to tell me not to go school because I am quarantine. Hope the school can have more cases of H1N1 then I can stay at home~~ LALALA~~
My mother says it is too exaggerating that my work place wants us to measure our temperature 3 times a day. Wants us to visit a doctor when 37.5 degrees and quarantined when 38 degrees. I think my temperature is quite high because I lack of sleep.
I knew why I'm fat, one of the reason of the many many reasons. Yesterday I read a magazine and it states that we should not eat something cold so much. I love eating ice and drinks cold water. We should drink hot drinks, eat hot food. Because when we eat cold food or when we are cold, our body will create fats around our internal organs to protect them. Logical. But straits times today also review on something like chubby people lives longer. Eh... -.-"
I think I want to get a story book of Cecilia Ahern, I think the title is "thanks for the memories", if not get myself some quiz or puzzles book like sudoku so I can pass my time at work tonight. Yeah, actually there shouldn't be any free time available. Because we should keep ourselves busy, we can clean our reception areas keep on wiping the same spot like some freak who have an issue with cleanliness, we can do revision on discounts and promotions and blah blah blah as if we will be having some important test on it.
Oh, I miss Koi. The bubble tea from Taiwan. I wish I could drink it now. Stupid fatty Tan always drinks a few mouthful of my bubble tea. Do he knows FOOD is IMPORTANT to me? Especialy my favourite food or favourite drink? It will be a different matter if he is someone special. Like how he always says he won't let me ride his bike because I am not his girlfriend. Maybe I will tell him later that he is not allowed to drink my bubble tea because he is not my boyfriend. I am willing to die fighting to defend my bubble tea, let alone that who will cares if it will give me cancer or makes me fat. MUAHAHA! >.<
Later we have laboratory session for this chemistry class. ZzZzz. I hate lab classes. Gnirob!! Wondering what is that word? It is the meaning of boring spells backwards. LALA~~!!
I wonder if I can open up my own shop selling cosmetics and beauty products since I am quite interested in this area also. If I could win the Singapore sweep, if I can marry a rich men. If I was born as a child of a tycoon. I have to stop dreaming and come to reality. No one is to blame and dreams may be possible if I aim for the moon and work my ass off. My number one aim is to complete my diploma no matter how tough it is.
Anyway, I was wondering at first whether I should bring back the Rose with me that day. I think I shoudn't. I make it that I should only bring home flowers given by my boyfriend or husband. But the Rose is really pretty! The dark red of the rose petals just makes me feels so romantic like those red roses you could see on people's wedding. So, I pluck the petals and lay them on the reception counter. Like how people lay them on bed to create some ambience. Maybe I shall upload the photo if it wasn't deleted. Louis took the picture of it because he was testing if the camera is functioning properly or not as it was said that the camera is spoiled. Also, he was like shaking the camera vigorously up down left right which I don't think is a good way to test if the camera is malfunctioning.
Ok, I shouldn't go finding for love. But I thought it was suppose that 幸福是要去争取的? 但去争取的爱情真的会幸福吗? 最后会快乐吗? 最后是一个胜利吗?
用心去感受.. 等待真爱..
12.55pm Monday 29June2009
Only the ten of us came to the class. WTH. How come I didn't recieve any email or sms to tell me that I am quarantined? I mean it is so unfair. So the straits times says that this H1N1 is not deadly, so we can still continue with daily activities. I'm so tired now. Yawnz~~
My face lit up when one of the staff working in AMK who is also studying at RP tells me that she recieve an email telling her not to come to school today, once I reach home, I rush and check my email. Disappointed when I check through all the mails and didn't found that email to tell me not to go school because I am quarantine. Hope the school can have more cases of H1N1 then I can stay at home~~ LALALA~~
My mother says it is too exaggerating that my work place wants us to measure our temperature 3 times a day. Wants us to visit a doctor when 37.5 degrees and quarantined when 38 degrees. I think my temperature is quite high because I lack of sleep.
I knew why I'm fat, one of the reason of the many many reasons. Yesterday I read a magazine and it states that we should not eat something cold so much. I love eating ice and drinks cold water. We should drink hot drinks, eat hot food. Because when we eat cold food or when we are cold, our body will create fats around our internal organs to protect them. Logical. But straits times today also review on something like chubby people lives longer. Eh... -.-"
I think I want to get a story book of Cecilia Ahern, I think the title is "thanks for the memories", if not get myself some quiz or puzzles book like sudoku so I can pass my time at work tonight. Yeah, actually there shouldn't be any free time available. Because we should keep ourselves busy, we can clean our reception areas keep on wiping the same spot like some freak who have an issue with cleanliness, we can do revision on discounts and promotions and blah blah blah as if we will be having some important test on it.
Oh, I miss Koi. The bubble tea from Taiwan. I wish I could drink it now. Stupid fatty Tan always drinks a few mouthful of my bubble tea. Do he knows FOOD is IMPORTANT to me? Especialy my favourite food or favourite drink? It will be a different matter if he is someone special. Like how he always says he won't let me ride his bike because I am not his girlfriend. Maybe I will tell him later that he is not allowed to drink my bubble tea because he is not my boyfriend. I am willing to die fighting to defend my bubble tea, let alone that who will cares if it will give me cancer or makes me fat. MUAHAHA! >.<
Later we have laboratory session for this chemistry class. ZzZzz. I hate lab classes. Gnirob!! Wondering what is that word? It is the meaning of boring spells backwards. LALA~~!!
I wonder if I can open up my own shop selling cosmetics and beauty products since I am quite interested in this area also. If I could win the Singapore sweep, if I can marry a rich men. If I was born as a child of a tycoon. I have to stop dreaming and come to reality. No one is to blame and dreams may be possible if I aim for the moon and work my ass off. My number one aim is to complete my diploma no matter how tough it is.
Anyway, I was wondering at first whether I should bring back the Rose with me that day. I think I shoudn't. I make it that I should only bring home flowers given by my boyfriend or husband. But the Rose is really pretty! The dark red of the rose petals just makes me feels so romantic like those red roses you could see on people's wedding. So, I pluck the petals and lay them on the reception counter. Like how people lay them on bed to create some ambience. Maybe I shall upload the photo if it wasn't deleted. Louis took the picture of it because he was testing if the camera is functioning properly or not as it was said that the camera is spoiled. Also, he was like shaking the camera vigorously up down left right which I don't think is a good way to test if the camera is malfunctioning.
Ok, I shouldn't go finding for love. But I thought it was suppose that 幸福是要去争取的? 但去争取的爱情真的会幸福吗? 最后会快乐吗? 最后是一个胜利吗?
用心去感受.. 等待真爱..
12.55pm Monday 29June2009
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Sunday, June 28, 2009 - 1:19 PM Y
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OK, I was on my way to work yesterday when Air con man called me. He says he have something for me placed at the reception counter. I was shocked. Did he know that I have blog about him, have someone KPO and loves to gossping told him? So is this a sign before thunderstorm? What did he get for me? A bloody pig head? Or a piece of shit wrap up in a plastic bag? Sompa I really that I will get something like this..Erm.. Because he is sort of person with tattoo, look very fierce machiam he killed a people or two when he was younger.. Eh.. Not that I think people with tattoo is whatever..
So, when I reached my workplace. On the reception counter. A rose. It was beautiful. I am in both "scared" and "happy" situation.
I have never recieve flowers from someone of the opposite sex before. When I saw someone sent YiMeng flowers during her birthday, I thought it was a waste of money and thought well, I would prefer people buy me diamonds and watches or bracelets. It was as if you have can't get to eat the grapes and says that the grapes is sour. But now I knew, flowers is beautiful, the type of feeling when you received flowers is undescribable. You felt romantic, you felt happiness.
But beautiful images in the bubbles dangling on my head is cancelled when he was someone 12 years older than me, have a wife and have kids. Maybe if he is Brad Pitt or Viggo Mortensen will be a different matter. Brad Pitt look like as if he is just 4 years older than me, he is fit and just undeniably gorgeous. Viggo Mortensen is just so man. He is like a wise man who will take care of his women and never betrays her just like what he was in Lord of the Rings.'
I mean I can't deny that I felt pampered and sweetness when I receive a Rose. That is why some men still buy their girlfriends and wife flowers whenever there is something special. Not all women feels something special when they get flowers too. I thought I was in that category but apparently I was wrong.
Conclusion: Married men shouldn't give girls like me A Rose. It will scare the hell out of me. Even if giving A Rose dosen't make any sense.
2.45pm Sunday 28June2009
So, when I reached my workplace. On the reception counter. A rose. It was beautiful. I am in both "scared" and "happy" situation.
I have never recieve flowers from someone of the opposite sex before. When I saw someone sent YiMeng flowers during her birthday, I thought it was a waste of money and thought well, I would prefer people buy me diamonds and watches or bracelets. It was as if you have can't get to eat the grapes and says that the grapes is sour. But now I knew, flowers is beautiful, the type of feeling when you received flowers is undescribable. You felt romantic, you felt happiness.
But beautiful images in the bubbles dangling on my head is cancelled when he was someone 12 years older than me, have a wife and have kids. Maybe if he is Brad Pitt or Viggo Mortensen will be a different matter. Brad Pitt look like as if he is just 4 years older than me, he is fit and just undeniably gorgeous. Viggo Mortensen is just so man. He is like a wise man who will take care of his women and never betrays her just like what he was in Lord of the Rings.'
I mean I can't deny that I felt pampered and sweetness when I receive a Rose. That is why some men still buy their girlfriends and wife flowers whenever there is something special. Not all women feels something special when they get flowers too. I thought I was in that category but apparently I was wrong.
Conclusion: Married men shouldn't give girls like me A Rose. It will scare the hell out of me. Even if giving A Rose dosen't make any sense.
2.45pm Sunday 28June2009
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Saturday, June 27, 2009 - 1:16 PM Y
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WTH. It is now 1pm. I slept at 8am and woke up but I am tired and can't close my eyes shut anymore. I wish I could sleep like bears that goes on hibernating in winter.
Anyway, the whole of night shift staff went for a farewell dinner for YiMeng, Jason, Benjamin and YuMing after work at 4am this morning. Food is nice but I totally regretted taking the food and feel like digging the food out of my throat. If not cut up myself and remove the food from my stomach and intestines.
Crazy people decided they could walk home from Upper Thomson to Yishun(didn't know if they made it), old people like me decided to take taxi home I'm totally exhausted and sleepy. I decided when I reach home, I will skip the bathing just remove my make up, wash my feet, change my clothes and brush my teeth and head for the bed.
When I reach home, I took out all my courage and stand on the weighing scale and pray while I slowly turn my vision down to the screen on the weighing scale. DAMN. I ate three meals today when usually I only have 1 meal a day. Genes. My metabolism rate is low. This is the my fattest moment in 2 years I became wide awake and cursing, and swearing whatever I could think of. I don't really curse and swear, just afraid if tomorrow I couldn't fit in my work uniform and too fat to zip up my pants. I put on a t-shirt and FBT shorts and track shoes and went for a 30 minutes jog and sweat it out.
So, I decided, next time when I know I will regret after taking the food, rather don't eat. But many men dislike women like this. Most men hate women who goes out for a dinner and order fruits and salad or a sandwich and say that they are full when the portion of food is like for rabbits. They hate women when she ordered food, put a few spoonful into the mouth, chew a little and announce she is full. Maybe I will not eat supper next time or just before sleep. Good enough. Hmm.. Think I am finding excuse so that I will still continue eating. Eating is the happiest activity on Earth.
1.30pm Saturday 27June2009
Anyway, the whole of night shift staff went for a farewell dinner for YiMeng, Jason, Benjamin and YuMing after work at 4am this morning. Food is nice but I totally regretted taking the food and feel like digging the food out of my throat. If not cut up myself and remove the food from my stomach and intestines.
Crazy people decided they could walk home from Upper Thomson to Yishun(didn't know if they made it), old people like me decided to take taxi home I'm totally exhausted and sleepy. I decided when I reach home, I will skip the bathing just remove my make up, wash my feet, change my clothes and brush my teeth and head for the bed.
When I reach home, I took out all my courage and stand on the weighing scale and pray while I slowly turn my vision down to the screen on the weighing scale. DAMN. I ate three meals today when usually I only have 1 meal a day. Genes. My metabolism rate is low. This is the my fattest moment in 2 years I became wide awake and cursing, and swearing whatever I could think of. I don't really curse and swear, just afraid if tomorrow I couldn't fit in my work uniform and too fat to zip up my pants. I put on a t-shirt and FBT shorts and track shoes and went for a 30 minutes jog and sweat it out.
So, I decided, next time when I know I will regret after taking the food, rather don't eat. But many men dislike women like this. Most men hate women who goes out for a dinner and order fruits and salad or a sandwich and say that they are full when the portion of food is like for rabbits. They hate women when she ordered food, put a few spoonful into the mouth, chew a little and announce she is full. Maybe I will not eat supper next time or just before sleep. Good enough. Hmm.. Think I am finding excuse so that I will still continue eating. Eating is the happiest activity on Earth.
1.30pm Saturday 27June2009
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Friday, June 26, 2009 - 11:05 AM Y
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Michael Jackson passed away. Due to heart attack?
Yesterday I watched this dunno what show, 许纯美 is the guest. I thought actually she is a very nice person. However people criticized her, and however people make fun of her, she dosen't mind and just smile and live in her own world. She is a very fortunate person, her husband died and leave her a huge sum of money. Erm.. Is she still fortunate because she is rich and her husband dies?
While I was walking to school this morning, I realise I love to walk slowly. People were like walking past me, in a very fast speed, estimated their speed will be like 6km/hr, rushing to school. Stressful. Walking slowly is some sort of enjoyment to me. Imagine life when you have nothing to do after dinner, walk in a beautiful park with your husband under the full moon smelling the sweet flower scent, holding his hand. I want to immigrate, to somewhere no high rise building, no cars, no technologies. I want to immigrate to the past where women just needs to stay at home and do needlework or do the things I love (I don't know how to do needle work anyway).
So, SiQing told me that our eldest sister, Sheryl kena quarantine because she just return from holidaying in Australia. She couldn't go to work because she is a primary school teacher. She couldn't risk going school and pass any illnesses and viruses to the kids. I told SiQing can we visit Sheryl so I can get quarantine too?
As the older I grew, the more I understand that prince charming who rides a white horse dosen't exist. When I was 12, I hope to marry a guy who can gives me anything I want, we can live in a palace, we dosen't need to work, we can spend everyday together, do archery, ride horse, do painting in the garden. When I'm 14, I hople he can earn at least a five digit salary, we can live in a condominium, we have a car, he have lots of credit cards, buy me flowers everyday after his work. When I'm 21, I hope my husband can earn enough to support the family and pay the utilities, we can live in at least a 5 room HDB flat that belongs to us, gives me monthly allowance so that I can give some money to my parents and buy the necessities and groceries.
But if I'm 30 and couldn't get married, we can go on dutch in everything, the bills and the food, I think my expectations will be as long as he dosen't gamble and robs the bank, as long as he is kind and loves me and dosen't betrays me, as long as we still have a place for shelter even if it was his parents house. What still matters?
Ok, I don't think I would want to marry a men who wants to go on dutch with the bills and everything. I would rather remain single till the day I die. 男人的尊严呢? 男人就是要照顾女人.
OMG...
11.55am Friday 26June2009
Yesterday I watched this dunno what show, 许纯美 is the guest. I thought actually she is a very nice person. However people criticized her, and however people make fun of her, she dosen't mind and just smile and live in her own world. She is a very fortunate person, her husband died and leave her a huge sum of money. Erm.. Is she still fortunate because she is rich and her husband dies?
While I was walking to school this morning, I realise I love to walk slowly. People were like walking past me, in a very fast speed, estimated their speed will be like 6km/hr, rushing to school. Stressful. Walking slowly is some sort of enjoyment to me. Imagine life when you have nothing to do after dinner, walk in a beautiful park with your husband under the full moon smelling the sweet flower scent, holding his hand. I want to immigrate, to somewhere no high rise building, no cars, no technologies. I want to immigrate to the past where women just needs to stay at home and do needlework or do the things I love (I don't know how to do needle work anyway).
So, SiQing told me that our eldest sister, Sheryl kena quarantine because she just return from holidaying in Australia. She couldn't go to work because she is a primary school teacher. She couldn't risk going school and pass any illnesses and viruses to the kids. I told SiQing can we visit Sheryl so I can get quarantine too?
As the older I grew, the more I understand that prince charming who rides a white horse dosen't exist. When I was 12, I hope to marry a guy who can gives me anything I want, we can live in a palace, we dosen't need to work, we can spend everyday together, do archery, ride horse, do painting in the garden. When I'm 14, I hople he can earn at least a five digit salary, we can live in a condominium, we have a car, he have lots of credit cards, buy me flowers everyday after his work. When I'm 21, I hope my husband can earn enough to support the family and pay the utilities, we can live in at least a 5 room HDB flat that belongs to us, gives me monthly allowance so that I can give some money to my parents and buy the necessities and groceries.
But if I'm 30 and couldn't get married, we can go on dutch in everything, the bills and the food, I think my expectations will be as long as he dosen't gamble and robs the bank, as long as he is kind and loves me and dosen't betrays me, as long as we still have a place for shelter even if it was his parents house. What still matters?
Ok, I don't think I would want to marry a men who wants to go on dutch with the bills and everything. I would rather remain single till the day I die. 男人的尊严呢? 男人就是要照顾女人.
OMG...
11.55am Friday 26June2009
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Thursday, June 25, 2009 - 10:24 AM Y
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I mean I felt so extremely excited and happy when my friend told me that she loves reading my blog entry as they makes her happy, she thinks my entries is funny.
Ok, I hope air con man does not do internet surfing, if he dosen't even know how to switch on a computer will be even better. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO BLOG ABOUT HIM.
I'm scared of him. Really.
Here is how it goes on Tuesday, his sister Shirley Temple(A quite popular drink in KBox) came, open a bottle of Martell and Louis is always like a host whenever she comes, or any other regular customers. You know, like those guys in Japanese host club? Treats women machiam they are like princesses. NO MATTER HOW LONELY I AM, I WILL NEVER BUY A MEN!
Scenario 1:
Air con man and 2 of his subordinates came and find Shirley Temple:
Subornate: You remember me?
Me: ... Eh... (I really have no idea.)
Air con man: Anyone can also disturb, but not her..
Scenario 2:
Shirley Temple and air con man come out for a smoking break:
Shirley Temple: SiLing arh...
Air Con Man: Cannot call her SiLing, must call her 大嫂..
Me: ... (Act blur, continue do my work)
Shirley Temple: You heard what my brother say?
Me: Huh?
Scenario 3:
Scenario 3:
Air con man came out and find me, take a cigarette and light it..
Air Con Man: You smoke?
Me: Nope..
Air Con Man: Thats good. Do you mind your boyfriend smoke?
Me: Nope.. (I display some annoyance on my face, I mind)
Air Con Man: Really? I will quite smoking. 我说到做到..
Me: Eh...
Scenario 4:
Air con man's subordinate come and ask for my number..
Subordinate: Can give me your number?
Me: Eh..
Subordinate: Cannot give nevermind, just say. You married already or have a boyfriend?
Me: I'm married. (I'M NOT!!)
Subordinate: He allows you to work out?
Me: Ya. He wants me to stay at home. But I love to work. ( I love my job, but if my husband is financial capable, and wants me to stay at home, I will stay at home.)
Subordinate: Ic, if I were your husband, I also wouldn't dare to let you go out work, hide you at home. You are pretty, many guys like me will come and disturb you. (SOMPA HE REALLY SAYS THIS)
Me: ... (WOW, if your are my type of men.. I would really want to hear this)
Scenario 5:
Work ended. Shirley Temple and air con man asked me to join them.
Air con man shifted to a side on the sofa, patted on the empty space beside me, signalling me to sit beside him.
Air con man: Tell me the truth, are you scared of me?
Me: Nope. (I AM!)
Air con man: You are 21, you know how old am I?
Me: I dunno.
Air con man: I'm 33, I'm a dragon too. Don't be scared of me, you are an important friend to me. I have wife and kids, I won't harm you. I used to be a bad person, I have done a lot of bad things, but now I am a good person. I won't harm you. Just that next time when you have a boyfriend, hope I can get to meet him. Must meet someone good. You are still very young, study hard, work hard, don't be like me, next time earn more money. Qualifications is really important. My mother used to tell me studies is important, now I regret. You are still young, don't think that you yourself is not good enough, you really have some assets. Don't go looking for love, study hard and work hard. When time is right, love will find you.
And he keeps on talking, and I listen. He is drunk. But I was touched by what he say. Some of the things he says really does makes sense. He makes me feels that I am someone special, somehow he really does understands me. This is perhaps like what people say, the salt they eat is more than the rice we have taken. But I have never had a friend 12 years older than me other than my eldest sister, who is 11 years old older and we shared the same room/bed for like 16 years.
It is not that I am afraid of men who are so much older than me, I find men who is older much more sexy, mature, have better sense of judgement and manly enough. But somehow, air con man and I are people of two different world that we don't seem to link and let alone be friends.
People who really knows me deep within knew that I am someone who lacks of confident since young as people gives me nicknames like ghost and alien. I mean people, please teach your kids in future not to humiliate people, make fun of them and call them names, it will traumatise them and make a great impact on them. I truly think that I am ugly from the whole inside and outside. Some of you must think: Yeah, you are still indeed ugly.
But I have to thank those people who thinks that I am pretty, or see the beauty of me, these people makes me happy with their remarks.
Anyway, I want to go for a photoshoot the next coming school holiday. I have went to a photoshoot when I'm 16. Now, I'm going for another one when I'm still 21. Youth will some day be gone, and you will even hope you can still grow a pimple on your face.
Conclusion: When men asked for your number, if you do not want to give, just say you are married.
Maybe I can be a writer. Possible?
1.00pm Thursday 25June2009
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Monday, June 22, 2009 - 12:17 PM Y
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Damn. I always hao lian to my colleagues that I have never been late for work. Lets see.. Almost 2 years full time, 6 months part time. I HAVE NEVER TMD BE LATE BEFORE UNTIL YESTERDAY!
Yesterday is father's day. We stayed at home and play mahjong. I played until 5.15 and RUN to the bus stop. I ran! And I catch a bus. Then I saw YiMeng, my colleague so coincidently. I estimated I will not be late. Guess what? Traffic jam because of accident, with bus smashing into another bus. OK, people get hurt, bleed or maybe somebody even died during accident. BIG BUSINESS. I being late for work? Compare to accident means nothing? But it is important to me! I have never been late. While I was on the bus, I feel like puking, feeling nervous, nauseous, stomach is like grumbling. This is what I feel when I know I'm late for work.
Ok, then I'm glad I've never take MC before for work. I still have one thing I look forward to. It is a year at work that I have never taken MC, and I can only get $200. JUST ONLY $200 FOR BEING SO HARDWORKING, LOYAL AND NEVER TAKE MC BEFORE AND FOR A LONG LONG YEAR. Who cares if they are giving so so so so so so little to small small workers, with low ranks in the company? I AM FROM THE LOWER INCOME GROUP IN SINGAPORE. OMG! LOWER INCOME GROUP! This amount of money is peanuts to the boss. Why don't increase our salary for people like me who be cow be horse for the company?Ok, thats why rich people gets richer each day. Do he need a maid? Maybe being a maid washing floors, doing laundry in his house can earn much more better than working out there as a receptionist.
Ok, after complaining so much, I still love my job. Just want to say that more benefits to workers will increase their loyalty and work efficiency to the company, and that the workers will not leave the company so easily, like not just work for a few months for fun and leave.
Increase salary = workers happy = good service = happy customers = more income
See? Logical?
Yesterday, regular customers came open two bottles of Chivas. This uncle wants my number so he says so he can check the charges before he come up. I gave him our outlets contact number and he says HE IS NOT TRYING TO WOO ME.
I thought, yeah, I have evaluated this problem before. So, he does not want to woo me, wants to know the charges yet does not wants to call outlets number. This is because he calls me, is different than he calls the outlet phone. It is the same as you want the managers contact number than the outlet's number. Get the meaning? But I give him my number also no use. I HAVE TO HAND IN MY HANDPHONE LIKE A SMALL KID, MACHIAM CAN NOT IDENTIFY OR CONTROL THE USE OF HANDPHONE AT WORK. I have give my contact number to a regular customer before, she ends up calling the outlet instead already because everytime she couldn't reach me by my handphone. Come on lah, we are not kids. If you employ someone so stupid and irresponsible then that person is not worth employing in the first place. NOT END UP EVERYONE AT WORK HAVE TO HAND IN THEIR HANDPHONES. TRUE?
Company wants us to make more of our own regular customers, be friendly and be fun. Customers have to call outlets to make reservations because we were unreachable. Where got "face" for both us and the so call VERY IMPORTANT REGULAR CUSTOMERS?
1.15PM Monday 22nd June2009
Yesterday is father's day. We stayed at home and play mahjong. I played until 5.15 and RUN to the bus stop. I ran! And I catch a bus. Then I saw YiMeng, my colleague so coincidently. I estimated I will not be late. Guess what? Traffic jam because of accident, with bus smashing into another bus. OK, people get hurt, bleed or maybe somebody even died during accident. BIG BUSINESS. I being late for work? Compare to accident means nothing? But it is important to me! I have never been late. While I was on the bus, I feel like puking, feeling nervous, nauseous, stomach is like grumbling. This is what I feel when I know I'm late for work.
Ok, then I'm glad I've never take MC before for work. I still have one thing I look forward to. It is a year at work that I have never taken MC, and I can only get $200. JUST ONLY $200 FOR BEING SO HARDWORKING, LOYAL AND NEVER TAKE MC BEFORE AND FOR A LONG LONG YEAR. Who cares if they are giving so so so so so so little to small small workers, with low ranks in the company? I AM FROM THE LOWER INCOME GROUP IN SINGAPORE. OMG! LOWER INCOME GROUP! This amount of money is peanuts to the boss. Why don't increase our salary for people like me who be cow be horse for the company?Ok, thats why rich people gets richer each day. Do he need a maid? Maybe being a maid washing floors, doing laundry in his house can earn much more better than working out there as a receptionist.
Ok, after complaining so much, I still love my job. Just want to say that more benefits to workers will increase their loyalty and work efficiency to the company, and that the workers will not leave the company so easily, like not just work for a few months for fun and leave.
Increase salary = workers happy = good service = happy customers = more income
See? Logical?
Yesterday, regular customers came open two bottles of Chivas. This uncle wants my number so he says so he can check the charges before he come up. I gave him our outlets contact number and he says HE IS NOT TRYING TO WOO ME.
I thought, yeah, I have evaluated this problem before. So, he does not want to woo me, wants to know the charges yet does not wants to call outlets number. This is because he calls me, is different than he calls the outlet phone. It is the same as you want the managers contact number than the outlet's number. Get the meaning? But I give him my number also no use. I HAVE TO HAND IN MY HANDPHONE LIKE A SMALL KID, MACHIAM CAN NOT IDENTIFY OR CONTROL THE USE OF HANDPHONE AT WORK. I have give my contact number to a regular customer before, she ends up calling the outlet instead already because everytime she couldn't reach me by my handphone. Come on lah, we are not kids. If you employ someone so stupid and irresponsible then that person is not worth employing in the first place. NOT END UP EVERYONE AT WORK HAVE TO HAND IN THEIR HANDPHONES. TRUE?
Company wants us to make more of our own regular customers, be friendly and be fun. Customers have to call outlets to make reservations because we were unreachable. Where got "face" for both us and the so call VERY IMPORTANT REGULAR CUSTOMERS?
1.15PM Monday 22nd June2009
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Thursday, June 18, 2009 - 1:49 PM Y
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Air con man asked me to call him during lunch today in school. I didn't. It would be wierd if I called him. He is like more than 10 years older than me, he have a wife and got childrens. But will I be rude if I didn't call him? Married men also have their rights to make friends right?
I think I should hypnotize myself and tell myself I LOVE SCHOOL. School is really killing me. It can make me aged a lot, makes me want to pull my hair out of my scalp. I want to be care free, you know, like the advertisement selling pads for women use? I think the advertisements is some sort like she was in a garden of flowers and spreading her arms laughing and turning round and round.
I want to be my own boss next time. I think I should start saving money now. I want to open a Cafe with a half basketball court located in the middle of it, surround it with four walls of transparent glass wall, the place will be air conditioned and popular English love songs will be played. People will be sipping coffee, reading comics and newspaper and having lunch. At night, it will be transformed into a pub, wild music play, disco light shining all over the place and sweaty handsome topless guys playing basketball and sipping cocktails drinking cognac then you can see "drunken basketball". WOW! IF I CAN OPEN A PLACE OF MY DREAMS NOW! I think I should place a copyright over here.
Work is going on more smoothly for me now. I am shooting for the moon, people laugh at me wanting a promotion when I just get promoted not long ago. Which makes me thought of how when I first joined KBox not long, Ang J.L, my senior says before to me: If you do not have a big head, don't try to wear a big hat. This comment keeps on haunting me every now and then. I always thought I have the ability, I am capable. I thought I am armed, loaded and equipped. Why no one sees me? YES, EVERYONE THOUGHT THAT THEY ARE GOOD ENOUGH AT WORK.
I am just worried and confused of my future. What will be my occupation? Do I do nails? Many people praised me on my skills of making beautiful nails for myself. Even customers who works in nail parlour praise me on the nails I do myself.
WOW. Today's lesson is about stem cells. Guess what I have learnt that is quite interesting that I want to share? There are rich americans who are dying soon, pay a huge sum of money to froze themselves up. Then if technology is possible a few hundred years later, they will be thawed up. So, they could see how the Earth is a few hundred later. Is it possible? Amazing ya? But such technology is not available yet. Researches and experiments is still going on.
Anyway, I think I can link KBOX with everything even in class today. KBox is poisoning my mind.
Stem Cells = S C = Suntec City
3.30pm Thursday 18June2009
I think I should hypnotize myself and tell myself I LOVE SCHOOL. School is really killing me. It can make me aged a lot, makes me want to pull my hair out of my scalp. I want to be care free, you know, like the advertisement selling pads for women use? I think the advertisements is some sort like she was in a garden of flowers and spreading her arms laughing and turning round and round.
I want to be my own boss next time. I think I should start saving money now. I want to open a Cafe with a half basketball court located in the middle of it, surround it with four walls of transparent glass wall, the place will be air conditioned and popular English love songs will be played. People will be sipping coffee, reading comics and newspaper and having lunch. At night, it will be transformed into a pub, wild music play, disco light shining all over the place and sweaty handsome topless guys playing basketball and sipping cocktails drinking cognac then you can see "drunken basketball". WOW! IF I CAN OPEN A PLACE OF MY DREAMS NOW! I think I should place a copyright over here.
Work is going on more smoothly for me now. I am shooting for the moon, people laugh at me wanting a promotion when I just get promoted not long ago. Which makes me thought of how when I first joined KBox not long, Ang J.L, my senior says before to me: If you do not have a big head, don't try to wear a big hat. This comment keeps on haunting me every now and then. I always thought I have the ability, I am capable. I thought I am armed, loaded and equipped. Why no one sees me? YES, EVERYONE THOUGHT THAT THEY ARE GOOD ENOUGH AT WORK.
I am just worried and confused of my future. What will be my occupation? Do I do nails? Many people praised me on my skills of making beautiful nails for myself. Even customers who works in nail parlour praise me on the nails I do myself.
WOW. Today's lesson is about stem cells. Guess what I have learnt that is quite interesting that I want to share? There are rich americans who are dying soon, pay a huge sum of money to froze themselves up. Then if technology is possible a few hundred years later, they will be thawed up. So, they could see how the Earth is a few hundred later. Is it possible? Amazing ya? But such technology is not available yet. Researches and experiments is still going on.
Anyway, I think I can link KBOX with everything even in class today. KBox is poisoning my mind.
Stem Cells = S C = Suntec City
3.30pm Thursday 18June2009
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009 - 11:57 PM Y
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LOL! Went to watch some video in Youtube from MrBrown show.. So funny!!
ERP
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fE4FLy93Bzo
Swine flu (Wash your hand)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lViRlo1_b1o
00.00 am 18June2009 Thursday
ERP
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fE4FLy93Bzo
Swine flu (Wash your hand)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lViRlo1_b1o
00.00 am 18June2009 Thursday
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Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately. I want to cast away all the negative part of me. Of course it seems like mission impossible. But well, I have seen too much. Fake and ugly. I have to apologise to people whom I may have offended in the past due to my ignorance. I am learning to grow up from being a 3 years old. I have made improvements. I did. Even it is tiny weeny bit. But after all, still it is a improvement.
Shoot for the moon, don't be afraid to dream.
11.30pm 17June2009 Wednesday
Shoot for the moon, don't be afraid to dream.
11.30pm 17June2009 Wednesday
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009 - 1:46 PM Y
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Ok, I'm so stress with my life now. I'm stress about later's presentation in class, I'm stress about my final year project report submission. I'm stress that if no people would ever want to marry me. I'm stress if I marry the wrong guy. I'm stress because I think too much. I'm stress because I'm either too negative thinking or I'm too positive thinking.
Here's my explanation: If I were ever to lose my job, never complete my diploma, be a poor person, earning a low income. I think that this is my fate. Its ok. But I'm afraid to be a person in a lower income group. Like those you read in the newspaper how government helps these people. Its ok, I can grow old single, accompanying my parents. BUT NO! IT ISN'T OK!
I was still stress why I recieved this message from an unknow number:
Unknown: Hi :-P take yr lunch already . . . Ar you busy now?
Me: Yup.. Sorry you are?
Unknown: Darling lor. . . ha ha . . .
Me: Haha.. Huimin ar? (Huimin is darling)
Unknown: Not la :) i am yr darling la u don't ah
Ok, depending on the English standard and spelling. I conclude he isn't Singaprean. It turns up he is the guy who service the air con of my workplace. He calls himself the aircon man. LOL! Cute. Imagine a guy who can repairs air con, change the light bulb, repair a choke toilet bowl. WOW!
Yup, yesterday someone asked me if I'm attached. I said no, there isn't nice men around. Then suggest to me that there surely are nice men in my school. To me, they are not attractive. And too young for me. I couldn't accept guys my age still taking poket money from their parents. Maybe even if they didn't. I don't care. They look too 嫩草already.
Ok, it is so funny. Air con man called me. I told him I'm studying now, working later and he says poor thing who sleeps only a few hours a day. Later will become panda. I told him I'm already a panda. He says I'm at least a pretty panda. LOL! Then we talk on the different outlets he went to before and the other outlets receptionist is arrogant and dosen't even talk to them machiam they owe them a hundred million dollars. Woohoo! I'm friendly, I smile and not arrogant! >.<
Note to self at work: 1. Never give up. 2. Patience. 3. Listen 4. Smile.
3pm Tuesday 16June2009
Here's my explanation: If I were ever to lose my job, never complete my diploma, be a poor person, earning a low income. I think that this is my fate. Its ok. But I'm afraid to be a person in a lower income group. Like those you read in the newspaper how government helps these people. Its ok, I can grow old single, accompanying my parents. BUT NO! IT ISN'T OK!
I was still stress why I recieved this message from an unknow number:
Unknown: Hi :-P take yr lunch already . . . Ar you busy now?
Me: Yup.. Sorry you are?
Unknown: Darling lor. . . ha ha . . .
Me: Haha.. Huimin ar? (Huimin is darling)
Unknown: Not la :) i am yr darling la u don't ah
Ok, depending on the English standard and spelling. I conclude he isn't Singaprean. It turns up he is the guy who service the air con of my workplace. He calls himself the aircon man. LOL! Cute. Imagine a guy who can repairs air con, change the light bulb, repair a choke toilet bowl. WOW!
Yup, yesterday someone asked me if I'm attached. I said no, there isn't nice men around. Then suggest to me that there surely are nice men in my school. To me, they are not attractive. And too young for me. I couldn't accept guys my age still taking poket money from their parents. Maybe even if they didn't. I don't care. They look too 嫩草already.
Ok, it is so funny. Air con man called me. I told him I'm studying now, working later and he says poor thing who sleeps only a few hours a day. Later will become panda. I told him I'm already a panda. He says I'm at least a pretty panda. LOL! Then we talk on the different outlets he went to before and the other outlets receptionist is arrogant and dosen't even talk to them machiam they owe them a hundred million dollars. Woohoo! I'm friendly, I smile and not arrogant! >.<
Note to self at work: 1. Never give up. 2. Patience. 3. Listen 4. Smile.
3pm Tuesday 16June2009
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Monday, June 15, 2009 - 1:26 PM Y
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I just taught my mother how to use the internet to watch tv shows. My mother dosen't even know how to switch on a computer, let alone go online to watch tv show. Can see that my mother is quite excited. Anyway, I overslept for school, so I didn't go.
Ok, I want to take back the word "Shorty" that I call this customer. He isn't short at all. Just that every time he came, I call him by "Ei", then he will say that he isn't short, in fact he is taller than me. So, he apologise to me yesterday very sincerely. Really. I'm not exaggerating, he says "sorry" to me for like maybe 30 times. Asked me what do I love to eat and he will buy for me next time when he comes. Then ask me did he cause me any trouble. I say no, and jokingly says that just got a scolding from Louis. So, a while later, he drag Louis out and tell him not my fault and explain he is drunk. Louis just laugh. Anyway, apologies accepted.
Now, I'm glad, because sometimes people likes to exaggerate and back stab a little. I didn't know what people tells others. You know what I mean, like who is around, see the situation and tell another story to another person?
The alcoholic Louis then asked him to go back into the room and drink, then he says he still got something want to talk to me, and tell Louis to go back inside first. And guess what Louis says before he is going to comfortably put his butt on the sofa and starts playing dice and drinks? 哇, 你要排对了, 丝灵最近是爆红嘞!
2pm Monday 15June2009
Ok, I want to take back the word "Shorty" that I call this customer. He isn't short at all. Just that every time he came, I call him by "Ei", then he will say that he isn't short, in fact he is taller than me. So, he apologise to me yesterday very sincerely. Really. I'm not exaggerating, he says "sorry" to me for like maybe 30 times. Asked me what do I love to eat and he will buy for me next time when he comes. Then ask me did he cause me any trouble. I say no, and jokingly says that just got a scolding from Louis. So, a while later, he drag Louis out and tell him not my fault and explain he is drunk. Louis just laugh. Anyway, apologies accepted.
Now, I'm glad, because sometimes people likes to exaggerate and back stab a little. I didn't know what people tells others. You know what I mean, like who is around, see the situation and tell another story to another person?
The alcoholic Louis then asked him to go back into the room and drink, then he says he still got something want to talk to me, and tell Louis to go back inside first. And guess what Louis says before he is going to comfortably put his butt on the sofa and starts playing dice and drinks? 哇, 你要排对了, 丝灵最近是爆红嘞!
2pm Monday 15June2009
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Saturday, June 13, 2009 - 4:43 AM Y
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Ok, this cute guy really makes my entire day happy! So, this cute guy and his group of friends came to celebrate their friends ORD. It is damn funny, at first when he was checking in, I thought this guy is cute and cool. With nice eye brows I thought. Like 蜡笔小新.
A few hours later, he came out, apply a member and he is drunk. Obviously. He keeps on talking non stop. Unlike how he first came in. Cool, and quiet. And he asked for my number! OMG! I'm overjoyed! Cute guy ask for my number! Not those wierd uncles! But he is drunk... I thought nevermind though. Then didn'tn know how, he knows I'm not Singaporean and ask for my origin and I say Philippine. Then don't know out of a sudden he touch my forehead! Like those you see in a drama. I mean, not touch my forehead, he is just trying to adjust my messy fringe. It can really make my heart beats faster, especially looking at me with his firm and handsome eyes which he tries to electrocute me with. Then Louis came. He tells him that he was trying to ask for a number from a pretty and he comes and kajiao. And then Louis just laugh! HE LAUGH! WTH, I'm not that bad ok? Then don't know how it change to commenting to Louis that my boyfriend will not be as good as he himself is. <-- According to the cute drunk guy.
Ok, first of all, is there anything written on my face that tells people that I am attached? Perhaps I really look like I'm attached thats why I am always single and available. Anyway, even about an hour later, Louis is like laughing and saying "Whoa, he is cute and he wants your number! HAHAHA".
I escorted the cute drunk guy back to his room and before he goes in, he tell me that he knows why I'm the receptionist. I just smile.
Why? I really want to ask. But well, sometimes if you talks too much, ask too much why, it will spoils the beauty of mysteriousness. Ok, not that. Just that I don't really bother talking to drunk people. Anyway people, if you are not trying to comment or say something nice then don't!
Lets say today there was this regular customer. He really spoils my day after the cute guy beautifies my day. Lets call him Shorty. When he came in, he is already drunk because he calls me Pretty. Maybe I am a pretty like he says. Then the next hour before he is leaving don't know what devil got into him. SHORTY SPOILS MY BEAUTIFUL DAY CREATED BY THE CUTE GUY! He don't know comment of the bullshit points in his account thingy and ah-fei is trying to pacify him. My mind just goes - 男人到了中年都是这样的吗? I think he is finding trouble! @#$%^&*!!!!
Anyway I am not a very "随便" women, just that these guys is sincere when they asked for my number. Maybe not. Plus not very often guys will ask for my numbers too. If you don't give your number people will think who the hell are you? Princess arrogant? Plus I don't believe he will message me or even remember that I even exist as he is drunk. And Louis and Sam also gives ladies their phone numbers. Why can't I?
Louis says: 要有矜持. This applies to women. UNFAIR! Ok, maybe I shouldn't give my number too easily. People should do 30 sit ups, 20 star jump and 30 push ups before they can get my number.
5.30am Saturday 13 June2 009
A few hours later, he came out, apply a member and he is drunk. Obviously. He keeps on talking non stop. Unlike how he first came in. Cool, and quiet. And he asked for my number! OMG! I'm overjoyed! Cute guy ask for my number! Not those wierd uncles! But he is drunk... I thought nevermind though. Then didn'tn know how, he knows I'm not Singaporean and ask for my origin and I say Philippine. Then don't know out of a sudden he touch my forehead! Like those you see in a drama. I mean, not touch my forehead, he is just trying to adjust my messy fringe. It can really make my heart beats faster, especially looking at me with his firm and handsome eyes which he tries to electrocute me with. Then Louis came. He tells him that he was trying to ask for a number from a pretty and he comes and kajiao. And then Louis just laugh! HE LAUGH! WTH, I'm not that bad ok? Then don't know how it change to commenting to Louis that my boyfriend will not be as good as he himself is. <-- According to the cute drunk guy.
Ok, first of all, is there anything written on my face that tells people that I am attached? Perhaps I really look like I'm attached thats why I am always single and available. Anyway, even about an hour later, Louis is like laughing and saying "Whoa, he is cute and he wants your number! HAHAHA".
I escorted the cute drunk guy back to his room and before he goes in, he tell me that he knows why I'm the receptionist. I just smile.
Why? I really want to ask. But well, sometimes if you talks too much, ask too much why, it will spoils the beauty of mysteriousness. Ok, not that. Just that I don't really bother talking to drunk people. Anyway people, if you are not trying to comment or say something nice then don't!
Lets say today there was this regular customer. He really spoils my day after the cute guy beautifies my day. Lets call him Shorty. When he came in, he is already drunk because he calls me Pretty. Maybe I am a pretty like he says. Then the next hour before he is leaving don't know what devil got into him. SHORTY SPOILS MY BEAUTIFUL DAY CREATED BY THE CUTE GUY! He don't know comment of the bullshit points in his account thingy and ah-fei is trying to pacify him. My mind just goes - 男人到了中年都是这样的吗? I think he is finding trouble! @#$%^&*!!!!
Anyway I am not a very "随便" women, just that these guys is sincere when they asked for my number. Maybe not. Plus not very often guys will ask for my numbers too. If you don't give your number people will think who the hell are you? Princess arrogant? Plus I don't believe he will message me or even remember that I even exist as he is drunk. And Louis and Sam also gives ladies their phone numbers. Why can't I?
Louis says: 要有矜持. This applies to women. UNFAIR! Ok, maybe I shouldn't give my number too easily. People should do 30 sit ups, 20 star jump and 30 push ups before they can get my number.
5.30am Saturday 13 June2 009
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Wednesday, June 10, 2009 - 11:53 PM Y
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I am unhealthy.
My tooth ache. That is because I love to eat chocolates and sweets. I can just take a spoon and eat from that bottle of Nutella. Disgusting? I can eat finish one huge box of Rocher lesser than an hour when I watch TV. Scary? And I love to bite ice. So, my teeth is spoiled. 3 of my teeth came off when I was eating ice. Shocking isn't it? And still, I'm not scared. I couldn't stop myself. I am addicted to ice, bubble tea and chocolate. I have an addiction. I am an addict.
Ever since I'm in primary school, eating ice is my hobby. Ever since Sweet talk becomes available everywhere, I can have a bubble tea every day. Sometimes even 3.
I think if I can stop my addiction to bubble tea and chocolate, I have no longer weight issue. And I don't need to worry on my health. I am afraid that I will get diabetes. I WILL BE GURANTEED WITH IT IF I DON'T STOP MYSELF.
I am afraid that I will become unfertilised if not will give birth to birth defects babies. They told me that eating ice is too cold and not good for women. Maybe for the womb or whatever.
I am afraid that I can go blind. Because my tooth drops and that I still continues eating ice. Sometimes I can taste my blood when I'm eating ice but I don't care. Maybe one day, the complicated nerves or cells around that area in my gum will break and I become blind just like that.
Maybe if things couldn't go my way, or I have failed, I can just jump of the building, poison myself or cut my wrist bleed profusely and die. There won't be any starting over in life.
I wish I can marry, give birth, look after the kids and cook dinner for the family. I can do the laundry, I can vacumn and mop. Husband can pamper me with shoppings, movies, massaging and things that we love. I just don't want SCHOOL. It is a disaster in my life. I can give anything or do anything as long as I am far away from school.
I don't want a boyfriend, I need a real men.
I asked my mother today, why do I need to go to school? So that I can get a better job in future, earn a living for myself. I imagined myself single, alone, old, childless and earning very less. People looked down on me, people despise me. I cried. I don't want life like this. I couldn't blame anyone the way I am or how and where I was born. I must already even be grateful that I was given a life, with a heartbeat and without any defects. I must be gratful I have loving parents, loving sisters. I am already so fortunate.
00.30 Thursday 11June2009
My tooth ache. That is because I love to eat chocolates and sweets. I can just take a spoon and eat from that bottle of Nutella. Disgusting? I can eat finish one huge box of Rocher lesser than an hour when I watch TV. Scary? And I love to bite ice. So, my teeth is spoiled. 3 of my teeth came off when I was eating ice. Shocking isn't it? And still, I'm not scared. I couldn't stop myself. I am addicted to ice, bubble tea and chocolate. I have an addiction. I am an addict.
Ever since I'm in primary school, eating ice is my hobby. Ever since Sweet talk becomes available everywhere, I can have a bubble tea every day. Sometimes even 3.
I think if I can stop my addiction to bubble tea and chocolate, I have no longer weight issue. And I don't need to worry on my health. I am afraid that I will get diabetes. I WILL BE GURANTEED WITH IT IF I DON'T STOP MYSELF.
I am afraid that I will become unfertilised if not will give birth to birth defects babies. They told me that eating ice is too cold and not good for women. Maybe for the womb or whatever.
I am afraid that I can go blind. Because my tooth drops and that I still continues eating ice. Sometimes I can taste my blood when I'm eating ice but I don't care. Maybe one day, the complicated nerves or cells around that area in my gum will break and I become blind just like that.
Maybe if things couldn't go my way, or I have failed, I can just jump of the building, poison myself or cut my wrist bleed profusely and die. There won't be any starting over in life.
I wish I can marry, give birth, look after the kids and cook dinner for the family. I can do the laundry, I can vacumn and mop. Husband can pamper me with shoppings, movies, massaging and things that we love. I just don't want SCHOOL. It is a disaster in my life. I can give anything or do anything as long as I am far away from school.
I don't want a boyfriend, I need a real men.
I asked my mother today, why do I need to go to school? So that I can get a better job in future, earn a living for myself. I imagined myself single, alone, old, childless and earning very less. People looked down on me, people despise me. I cried. I don't want life like this. I couldn't blame anyone the way I am or how and where I was born. I must already even be grateful that I was given a life, with a heartbeat and without any defects. I must be gratful I have loving parents, loving sisters. I am already so fortunate.
00.30 Thursday 11June2009
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Tuesday, June 9, 2009 - 3:29 AM Y
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Ok, I've been lazy to update. But nah. The real fact is that I am not really in the mood to update because I'm getting fatter that I think my zips in my pants can't be pulled up and the buttons on my work uniform is going to burst soon.
Really. Today on my way home in the transport, I was thinking of this. If I am to be someone 10kg lighter, I will be happier. I am sure. I will be confident. I will be grateful. I will smile truthfully.
I even joked on what if I become too fat that will my supervisor fire me or give me a warning letter because I am too fat to fit into my uniform.
So, I guess I have really stepped out or if not, at least one of my leg is stepped out of the gossiping at work. I guessed I have truthfully want to help everyone around me at work. It will be great to pity people, or at least give some sympathy and stop bad mouthing and stir up trouble and plan to watch a good show.
Yes, you will say he didn't do this, have not done that, done that wrongly, did not have to do that or whatsoever. Maybe he was really a pain in the ass. Look at yourself also, you will realise that you also need to make some improvements in youself.
Sometimes people just need to observe and learn. Before you tell people to do this and to do that, not to do this, not to do that. LOOK AT YOURSELF FIRST. IF YOU ARE SO PERFECT...... FINE. IF NOT? FUCK OFF!
That day someone was telling me not to do something. I felt like yelling back telling that person that he/she need to reflect on himself/herself first before opening he/her mouth to tell people things but she/he isn't so perfect as well. 你算老几啊?
I didn't yell back and laugh instead. It seems so funny to be told off to do something yet that person failed to do also.
I tell fatty that I have been better than I used to be and he agreed. I stay out of the fights at work, I didn't complain as much of the things at work. It dosen't mean that I don't care anymore. EVERONE IN THE WORK ENVIROMENT THINKS THAT THEY ARE MORE CAPABLE THAN THE OTHER. This is what I figure out recently. So, I am learning from that sentence.
This person complaining that person always hanging around the area talking, that person complain this person always disappear didn't know will be at where slacking, that person complain this person being slow and didn't do what is required in the job scope. Now, I will just listen. No comments. (comments = add salt, add vinegar).
I realise that the more I listen, the more I learn. Thanks. And I truly appreciate it.
That day a few days ago business ends at 2am. All customers have left. I was just out of the toilet after changing and I heard the phone rang. I RUSH to the phone and picked up:
Me: KBox, Broadway SiLing speaking how may I assist you?
Supervisor from _ _: How come so long then pick up the phone? (Very sarcastically)
Damn him. I looked at my watch. It is 2.30. My colleagues were already all changed, standing outside of the outlet, waiting for only the supervisor to close the outlet. And he blamed me! DAMN! I feel like yelling again. But maybe I have master the word: control
Me: 做么? 我们两点结束营业leh..
Supervisor: 是meh?
I mean he is a loser. Imagine you are the one answering the phone. Anyway, this is the second supervisor I have met with the same situation. They always thought the staff did not do their job. And they start accusing before even finding out what have happened or whats the problem.
4.30am Tuesday9thJune
Really. Today on my way home in the transport, I was thinking of this. If I am to be someone 10kg lighter, I will be happier. I am sure. I will be confident. I will be grateful. I will smile truthfully.
I even joked on what if I become too fat that will my supervisor fire me or give me a warning letter because I am too fat to fit into my uniform.
So, I guess I have really stepped out or if not, at least one of my leg is stepped out of the gossiping at work. I guessed I have truthfully want to help everyone around me at work. It will be great to pity people, or at least give some sympathy and stop bad mouthing and stir up trouble and plan to watch a good show.
Yes, you will say he didn't do this, have not done that, done that wrongly, did not have to do that or whatsoever. Maybe he was really a pain in the ass. Look at yourself also, you will realise that you also need to make some improvements in youself.
Sometimes people just need to observe and learn. Before you tell people to do this and to do that, not to do this, not to do that. LOOK AT YOURSELF FIRST. IF YOU ARE SO PERFECT...... FINE. IF NOT? FUCK OFF!
That day someone was telling me not to do something. I felt like yelling back telling that person that he/she need to reflect on himself/herself first before opening he/her mouth to tell people things but she/he isn't so perfect as well. 你算老几啊?
I didn't yell back and laugh instead. It seems so funny to be told off to do something yet that person failed to do also.
I tell fatty that I have been better than I used to be and he agreed. I stay out of the fights at work, I didn't complain as much of the things at work. It dosen't mean that I don't care anymore. EVERONE IN THE WORK ENVIROMENT THINKS THAT THEY ARE MORE CAPABLE THAN THE OTHER. This is what I figure out recently. So, I am learning from that sentence.
This person complaining that person always hanging around the area talking, that person complain this person always disappear didn't know will be at where slacking, that person complain this person being slow and didn't do what is required in the job scope. Now, I will just listen. No comments. (comments = add salt, add vinegar).
I realise that the more I listen, the more I learn. Thanks. And I truly appreciate it.
That day a few days ago business ends at 2am. All customers have left. I was just out of the toilet after changing and I heard the phone rang. I RUSH to the phone and picked up:
Me: KBox, Broadway SiLing speaking how may I assist you?
Supervisor from _ _: How come so long then pick up the phone? (Very sarcastically)
Damn him. I looked at my watch. It is 2.30. My colleagues were already all changed, standing outside of the outlet, waiting for only the supervisor to close the outlet. And he blamed me! DAMN! I feel like yelling again. But maybe I have master the word: control
Me: 做么? 我们两点结束营业leh..
Supervisor: 是meh?
I mean he is a loser. Imagine you are the one answering the phone. Anyway, this is the second supervisor I have met with the same situation. They always thought the staff did not do their job. And they start accusing before even finding out what have happened or whats the problem.
4.30am Tuesday9thJune