Anyway, this is how it looks like this morning when they want to see your thermometer before you can enter school. Like 门神right? 阵仗very big hor? Anyway, yesterday Justina* came to find me at work today. It is rare he came. So I was asking how is he and ask him when will he be promoting to Captain. I'm not trying to be sarcastic to him, it is just that he is 26 already! Have been working in this company on and off like 3 or 4 years already! I asked him did he regret that he did not put in effort at work, if so, he might already be a supervisor here. I said I am. Eh.. But I think I am of a different case, I put in effort. I said I regret converting into receptionist. I regret working part time for like only 5 months when my schedule is almost as much as a full time in the 2 years 7 month I have in this company. If not I might be a captain already. I might not since people says I do not have leadership skills, nobody would want to listen to me. BUT SOMEHOW PEOPLE I SEE WITHOUT LEADERSHIP SKILLS CAN EVEN BE A SUPERVISOR OR A CAPTAIN. OR MAYBE JUST THAT I DIDN'T GO AROUND BEING NICE TO EVERYONE OR HIT THE HORSE ASS FOR SOME FART?
I think I shouldn' complain and voice out too much on my grudge and opinion, if the upper management knew of my dissatisfaction they might want to sent me a termination any moment. LALA~~
So, I was telling Justina* that he should put in effort in work, try to promote to a captain again since he could like almost 2 or 3 years ago be a trainee captain, just that he took the chance for granted and let our "granddad" down. He was saying the outlet he is in have many gossips. I tell him yes, he shouldn't care as every place also have gossips. People eat too full have nothing better else to do to 打发时间. People would say, hey Justina* is slacking again, Justina* is on MC again or Justina* is not got enough and whatever shit. Just that if you have a clear conscience, what are you afraid of?
He says he is stress. I tell him that everyone have their stress. Every job have their stresses. He must overcome the stress and not run away from the stress. He says then he will change a job if not. I tell him he is already 26, if he does not have a positive mindset, he won't stay long at every of his job and the next job situation's will still be the same and he will always goes job hopping. Life is meaningless if he gives up like this and does not have dreams. I tell him he should have a aim now and work towards it. I tell him he should go up to Josephine* and tell him: I'm now awake, I will work hard, I will prove to you, I want to climb higher.
Sometimes, it is easier to tell people, yet you also can't accomplish it yourself. So, I tell him he can choose not to listen to what I say and treat what I say as bullshit.
OK, face the reality, this is life.
Clarrisa* asked me how old do I plan to marry at. I said 25 and she says 25 is a common age for women wanting to get married at because it is 25. I thought if I were to be 25, I think that it is of no difference with the 21 years old I am. I think I will still be the same me when I'm 25, I won't be more mature, I won't be much wiser or whatever, so whats the difference if I were to get married now? It seems mission impossible for me to meet someone right. Maybe if someone who is financially capable, presentable and and will dotes on me appears right now. Hmm, fine. Nobody will want to marry me because I love money! Loving money isn't a crime. It is just that money is also a huge factor for consideration in a happy married life, this is the fact, imagine you will be quarelling and unhappy about money situation everyday like some couples, YUCK! I DON'T WANT. And also, guys nowadays dosen't want to settle down even when they are 30-40, they think that it is their 闪闪发亮time.
1.30pm Mondqy 6July2009