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Tuesday, November 10, 2009 - 3:21 AM Y
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I admit that I'm the type of person who sees everything beautifully, and I'm always optimistic. Even when the stars, flowers, clouds and moon were to dissappear, it will always be not for long. I'm too optimistic. I'm the type of person that even if the sky falls, I will take it as a blanket to cover myself. I hate stress, I hate trouble, I hate worries, I hate pressure, I hate anxiety. I hate school. I felt stress, trouble, worrying, pressurise, restless of Monday to come for school. Like what I said, if in this century eduction could means nothing, if I could just be in the ancient China when people dosen't encourage women to study and stay at home, I will be more than glad that I'm a women. I cannot handle stress, I am not that capable, I am not that brave, I am not that independent, I am not that courageous. My solution, take one step at a time and don't think too much about it anymore. But LaoGong is brave enough, mature enough than me to consider and plan of his future. He knows about his CPF stuff, he knows about insurances and pays his own bills and school fees. I don't even knows how much is my phone bills, how much do I have for my CPF, my singpass password or how much does the utilities bill is costing my parents every month. I didn't even know how to pay my library fines. Even after typing this out, I don't even plan to find out. Seriously. This is me. Maybe you can say it is selfish and irresponsible. But this is me, I have always been like this. I grew up never having worries over financial. My parents only tell me that money is difficult to earn. I'm sorry I'm being and overly dependent on my family. It is not that we should always keep our problems, worries, sadness, sorrows to ourselves. Because even how difficult life is, since the moment you spend one minute worrying, being sad, unhappy, it means you lose one minute of happiness in your life. <-- Taught to me by Hanyee. 相信能同甘共苦,
相信能幸福美满, 白头偕老 :)4.30am Tuesday 10 November 2009