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A few weeks ago, I was packing up my books in the book shelves and I found 3 Bibles that belongs to me. I wondered how long ago was the last time I attended a session. A few days ago, after hubby shares with me about a church session he attended with his family, I took a out a Bible and flips to one page, and just came across to read a line in it and close the book and put it back in the same position as it was. The line of words is something similar to this: Jesus loves you more than you can imagine. And it keeps me thinking now. And I could still remembered those days when I attend the sessions, when I was like 6, when my sister brought me to City Harvest, I can still remembers some of the songs that we sing to praise the lord, what the pastors said, some of the stories from the Bible. I can still remembered the first time when I attend a church session, how others welcome me, a big sister prayed for me telling God to forgive my sins and I cried during the prayer.I can still remember when my sister and I were eating Chicken rice when the chilli sauce gets into my eyes, my sister prays to God, asking for forgiveness and that it will not hurt me and I will not suffer pain. And God is there, the chilli sauce dosen't hurt my eyes, I don't feel the pain anymore.Jack Neo is a Christian. God forgives sins. Something is wrong here, how can I explain what I want to say? If I'm not wrong, I can still remembers the sessions I attended in church sessions always tells moral stories. What is right and what is wrong. I can't remember how or why we stop going to church.I believe there is God, there is Jesus, there is GuanYin, there is Buddha. Why do I believe they all exists? Sometimes I prays to God, sometimes I prays to Buddha, sometimes I pray to Jesus, sometimes I prays to GuanYin and they answer to my prayers.I can still remembers what I prays to my ancestors when I was offering joss sticks during April last year during tomb sweeping. I prays to my ancestors to forgive my sins and I prays for them that I can find a boyfriend who loves me. And they answers my prayer. I found him. He found me. Or if you want to say we found each other. When nights I'm alone and afraid to sleep, I prays to God that he will protect me and devils and saturn will not harm me because God is with me. And I sleep.
Whenever there is chance that I visit any visit any temple by any chance, I didn't even know who I am praying to. I just prayed even when I'm just 10: Please let me find my true love. And my prayers is answered. We are all children of God, even if we are 50, we might even do the wrong things and so, just blame the fault on Saturn?00.30am Thursday 11 March 2010