I have always been fat my entire life, this is what I would say. This is what I thought. But it is not true. Although I might never been considered skinny at all my entire life till now but I have been under acceptable weight a few years ago or at a couple of short periods of time. When I was about 22 years old and went running for about 6km every few days and I weigh about 52kg after slightly shedding off some weight and that is when I got my current boyfriend. But after some time, I stop running again because I was busy dating. Fine! I was just lazy.
Ever since I was young, being a baby, a toddler or a child I was considered big size or chubby. When I was in primary school (which is for children between 7-12 years old) I was like the biggest kid in class. When I was 12 years old, I was like 1.55m and weighs 50.2kg. I was literally a giant. I wished I will not grow any taller and gain no more weight. It was really depressing as the guys that I like in my class is always smaller size than me and I was always being made fun of as I can remember. It was just that I reached puberty early. Now, I wish I would have been taller, I wish that I will be 1.70m at least.
My height stuck at 1.57m when I was like 13 or 14 and ever since I did not grow any millimeter taller and my weight remain constant throughout the years till only after my O'level examinations I became like 64kg. I guess it was because to study for our O'level, my friends and I hang out at fast food restaurants to study that is the reason for the weight gain.
While studying for my diploma in polytechnic, I worked in a family karaoke place which I alternate working as a part/full timer depending whether I could cope with my studies in school. Most of the time I couldn't, that is why usually normal students uses 3 years to get their diploma from local polytechnic and I took the maximum 5 years allowed to complete my diploma getting a GPA 2.02/4.0! If my GPA is lesser than 2.00, that means I would have wasted 5 years of my life trying to achieve nothing.
While juggling between work and studies, I lost weight again which is partially due to being tired because of the lack of sleep, and my weight dropped till about 50kg, and it was also partially because I want to fit nicer into the receptionist uniform. No matter what, I was still considered fat because I'm super short.
After being single for 8 years, I began wondering why didn't I have boyfriend. My last boyfriend is when I was like just 13 years old. And I try my very best to lose weight. I went running, then gotten my boyfriend and gain weight again. We put on weight together. My boyfriend was 63kg and he became 79kg. Since he is quite tall, the weight gain dosen't makes him to be too fat either, he is still under the acceptable weight, under the healthy BMI range. But it is not that good for me. From being 52kg in 2011, I put on almost 18kg! The last time I saw my heaviest weight ever on a weighing scale is 69.6kg in Feb 2014! My BMI was 28.6! Way above the normal healthy range. Which health promotion board encourage people in Singapore to have a BMI range lesser than 22.9.
Last December my boyfriend start his plan to lose weight and he succeeded. He took about 4 months to lose 10kg. And we were almost the same weight but he is at least about 20cm taller than me!
I decided that this must not continue anymore so I visited a general practitioner around my neighborhood. The doctor prescribed me with Duromine, a medicine to assist in weight loss, this medicine is only available by prescription only. As advised by the doctor, I have to run at least 2.4km a week. Run, not walking, the doctor says no matter how slow I run dosen't matter and I just have to run. All other exercise such as trekking, playing badminton or basketball does not include. Only running. And I followed my doctor's advise. I kept a record of all my running records to motivate me. For the first month, I lost 6kg, 2nd month 4kg and this month only about 2kg. The doctor says this is common that the weight dropped will decreased over time.
The only thing about Duromine is that the first few weeks I have insomnia, I slept only 3 to 4 hours every night but I was super energetic throughout the day. I got dry lips, keeps feeling thristy and I have palpitations. Now I got non of the side effects just that mood swings which I didn't notice till only recently. I left with only 1 week of medicine and the doctor told me during the last visit I have done well and he will not give me any more medicine to continue as Duromine is a very controlled medicine in Singapore only suitable and prescribe for people with BMI above 27.
I have been stucked at 57kg for about more than 1 week already, I just hoped that I can continue to drop my weight, continue running, don't gain any more weight in future unless pregnancy, wear pretty clothes and buy pretty clothes when I lose more weight and be healthy and happy. And I still need to lose another 2kg to be under the range of healthy BMI range which is lesser than 22.9.
08May2014
10.05am
Lingderella